October 21, 1944
Sarah, My Dearest Darling:
From the looks of things, I’m going to have several days wait here before I will be able to return to my old outfit. I surely dislike the sitting around. I would rather be working any time. I thought of you many times today and the thing I am looking forward to the most is when I will be promoted to a civilian.
I had to laugh at Alrik the other day, for he said he will be glad to be busted to a civilian anytime. He is really sick and tired of the Army. Some of the things he told me about made me laugh until my sides hurt. He has a way of telling things that is really funny. Someday I’ll tell you all about it, Dear.
This morning I took care of several things that I had to do. After that, I returned here to wait for a plane. I bought a late Time magazine and read it from cover to cover.
This afternoon I took a long walk and it was actually good to see nice green grass and lovely flowers again. Those large fluffy white clouds over the mountains were a sight to behold. In some places it looked like large bales of cotton resting on a jagged and rough table. At one time, there was also a beautiful rainbow which appeared in one of the valleys.
I walked over to the Transient Officer’s mess and who should I see sitting at one of the tables but Bill Starrett. I had a long visit with him. He is leaving for the Mainland tonight. We may see him in a week or two. It was good to see an old friend from North Shore. I never could quite understand Bill and after talking to him tonight I still feel the same way. He talked to me about the church a great length and he is very much dissatisfied with NSBC. Many of the statements he made I know are true and we ought to pray about them. Such as the glorified idea the church has of itself. And over 700 new members and where are they? He spoke of certain elements of hypocrisy and double living and he said the church needs a revival. On this point I agree with him 100%. He has an almost antagonistic way of saying what he thinks which creates the wrong impression. I realize many of the things he said are true but I believe God can and will work through instruments that are yielded to him. I would further add on my own NSBC and all the rest of the churches better get on their toes and face facts and remember that the Lord doesn’t ask for vessels of gold and silver but he does ask for vessels that are clean and pure. Sweetheart, I have seen and heard some things that are hard to believe but I know they are true because I have actually worked with the individuals involved.
You can take this for what it is worth, but I think NSBC has been inundated with the prevalent feeling which has swept across the U.S. in every phase of life and that is the fact, “You got to be doing something.” I think that is brought out clearly in the program followed in the church. I mean by that, it is more social than spiritual. It is true we need an integrated program. But I can see no excuse for failing to cut off and laying aside so many besetting weights as we find in Hebrews 12:1-2. There is a difference in knowing about Christ and knowing Him. I don’t like this business of bringing in special celebrities to attract people to the Lord’s house. Christ says, “and if I be lifted up will draw all men unto me.” All we are to do is to lift Him up in our lives and He will do the rest. At present, we have too much harness and not enough horse. Many people are going to be shocked with the men who return home. Our methods of training in the home and the church and been so haphazard that the majority of the men don’t know what to believe. And when they see their buddies destroyed on all sides and see the privations and sufferings of other people they find their minds more confused than ever. After all, war is a waste of everything and always filled with contradictions. This war, as every other war, has only increased our problems. We are amazed at the waist of material and the thousands of men who lose their lives, but remember, we will have an army of almost 10,000,000 men with whom the long problem of reconversion socially will be a problem so great that it will make our industrial conversion look like a picnic. That is why I say the church must be ready with a program which will be at the hearts of men with the consciousness of a God who is interested in the lives of men in communion with Him. We have had enough slogans, let us work for action that speaks of a living fellowship with Christ. Darling, there are so many things that I have experienced which I would like for you to know, but they will have to wait. I’m more convinced then ever that we must make Philippians 3:9-10 true of our life. Well Darling, I must close for now but I want you to know how I feel. I love you with all my heart. God bless you, Dear.
Always and forever yours and His matchless love,